2010 was a terrible year, terrible till beyond limit.
Sanity was stretched to limit, emotions were pushed to limit. Bugged down by fear and anxiety every single day.
During the dark hours, periods where I simply cannot manifest strength from within, what I really yearned for is someone who can be there, to provide the support, to walk through the bad times.

It is not what that is being spoken that matters, it is the action, the willingness to be there in my times of needs and helpless that is so important to me.

The me of 2010 has now been laid to rest.
Finally, this year, I can slowly feel positivity creeping back. Although at this time, I am still overall being weighed down by negativities, I sincerely hope this year, will be the year where the negativities over the past few years can be washed out with some happiness in my life. Positivity and happiness, I really need you, please come and find me.

Some things about myself that seems clearer to me over this year:

1. I am someone who has a strong need to need and to be needed. It is that sense of emotional needs that draws me close to someone. The moment that when I feel I don't feel needed, is the moment I will drift away.

2. As due to above, hence I am someone who needs to be explicitly known of the fact that I am important, and that I am needed. Subtlety just doesn't work for me as being someone who is insecure and not confident, I tend to think more of the negative sides than positives when I am not sure.

3. For a guy, I am lousy in the sense I am too emotionally, and too unconfident of myself. Maybe that's the reason I need that someone who can bring the most out of me. Someone who can fill that void within me. Someone who can harness that dormant energy into constructive forms, not destructive forms.

=)