Overheard this song at 933 ....

Another classic song IMO ....

http://www.5music.org/Song/33153/

慌乱城市 盲目爱情真真假假

虚虚实实你我爱得多么小心

曾经听过多少誓言相信过多少谎言

到最后还市进退失据



那些故事 那段曾经明明白白

清清楚楚我的现在只属于你

心头的点点滴滴沉默的千言万语

真情得来不易 你我都该珍惜

For the past two months that I have been driving regularly, I got to travel alot in the car, learn many new roads.

But sooner or later, I am gonna get my GPS! Haha ;)

Travelling around and seeing my more places from another angle somehow do help in widening one's horizon and taking new perspectives.

Together with the fact that the turmoil is coming to a close after more than a year, I suddenly felt empowered to do more things to my life. To manage it, and to get things in order.

Yesterday, somehow this sentence keeps coming across my mind.

"With power, comes responsiblity"

The fact that one having power to do more things, also means having to shoulder more responsibilties, to use your newfound power in the right way, and make sure it is not abused.

Take for example, I must really learn to curb my temper while driving. I must really learn to be more responsible and not so hot-tempered. I just can't stand it when people high beam me after I have signalled them and cutting their lanes. I was so worked up I totally lost my cool yesterday and did stupid things only to regret later for being so worked up. Luckily, it is not a mistake that cannot be rectified or bring endless regret. But I must really learn to cool down and learn from the lessons before something that cannot be remedied happens.

The past few days have been rather down days seeing people around being so upset. And perhaps all the more so because I can relate to it, similar to the pain felt almost six and half years ago.

At the point, it's like the whole world has collapsed, your source of strength taken away from you, and you just can't find a reason to carry on. The months that followed were like hell, breaking down now and then ...

But when things are down and seemingly hopeless, all the more you should carry on because as long as you hang on, there will still be a glimmer of hope.

But sad to say, I was not able to persevere all the way till the end. Perhaps over the years, the differences seemed more glaring and with more and more disappointments along the way, until things seemed so bleak that there is simply just not enough left inside to overcome the odds.

Perhaps, there was still a chance that things could have turned out well if not for the sucker punch that came from nowhere last year, that totally extinguished any remaining hopes. Perhap something were really not meant to be. You may not agree, but after all these, I just can't help but agree with the phrase:

"Man proposes, God disposes"

If I were to view it from another perspective, the self-consoling perspective, then maybe it can turn out to be a blessing in disguise.

But that is just my own side of the story.

Anyway, to whoever is reading this entry, and if you happen to be reading it, just remember that as long as one does not give up, there will still be a glimmer of hope? But first, you must ask yourself is it worth carrying on, to persevere no matter what is the odds? And are you sure you can last all the way till the end even though there may be even much greater hurt along the way? Are you sure you are able to take all these?

If you answer is yes to all these, go with your heart but at the same time where you ought to hope for the best, you must at the same time be prepared for the worst. Simply because the future is not for us to see ... and sometimes, the unexpected does happen which may leave us with little choice.

Lastly, I hope my little experience is of help to anyone. That ...
Time really does have a healing effect.

Besides the one who is hurt, the one who hurts is definitely also feeling the pain, and perhaps not much lesser.
But whichever party, as time goes by, the pain will become less unbearable until eventually, at some point, both parties will be able to move on from the experience and hopefully, pursue their happiness once more, no matter the outcome ....

I sincerely wish the days of pain will come past soon for everyone, and hope everyone has the strength to pursue their happiness in life once more. :) :) :)

I remembered a scene from the channel 8 drama before I left for work on Friday.

The guy was reduced to despair and hopelessness because she was betrayed by the girl he loves. It was a plot by her godmother which she had to carried out in order to damage the guy's father's business or something like that.

In the end, the guy sinked into despair, left home, cut off contact from everyone, and became a karang guni man. The girl deeply regretted because she realised she truly loves him.

After finding where he is, and knows that he is collecting trashed cans, she bought cartons of drink cans and poured them away into the sink (quite wasteful I think). She then brought the empty cans and threw them using one hand into some rubbish area near to the guy's place, using the other hand to hold her nose ....


Evidence of love?

- Was it willing to go the extra mile for someone because you truly cared?

- Was it sticking through bad times and good times together, to share weal and woe?


Hmmm ... maybe. But if one day, if you ever feel like this for someone, and the person feels the same ... then quite likely it is a relationship worth to be treasured.
Then, you should go for it ....


Someone's coming back today.

Ghost of the past? Perhaps ....

Maybe when one's mind is no longer clouded from the illusions and fantasies created, you are able to see the whole picture more clearly once more ...

Today I was posted back the question what I am hoping to look for in a relationship.

Hmm ...

Perhaps I am looking for one which is simple and steady, not something fanciful or ephemeral ....

Well, guess one's perspective changes with age. Throughout the years, after facing numerous setbacks and emerging from them has changed my outlook.

Well, guess I need a relationship where I can feel touched, and feel treasured as well. After all these years of being just on the giving end, I am simply tired. You can say that I am drained, too tired to be giving, or tired to face hurt again.
And maybe, too eroded of confidence to trust again.

Definitely, the relationship must be one that can be depended on and relied on. In times of adversity. Over the past year, the phrase "患難見真情" has been deeply etched in my mind. It is too easy for people to share good times together, but really, only during bad times will it be easier to see who is true to you.

The feeling must too be mutual and balanced, not with one party giving much more than the other. Commitment must come from both parties, both willing to put in the effort to maintain it.

Yes, I do agree that frequency and "默契" is important too. So that you can have that right kind of feeling ...

But at this moment in time, what I really need is perhaps a relationship that can make me feel touched, and to be able to trust again.
Someone who is willing to put in the effort, to go the extra mile, simply because ... she cares.
Perhaps if there's such a person and there's such a day, I would be able to give much more than received ...

For now, I shall reserve my feelings perhaps until if there's such a day, the right person emerge.

Meanwhile, now that the times of adversity seemed to have come to an end, it is now time for me to reorganise my life once more. To put my life back in balance. To catch up on the times I have lost. And to ... learn to love myself more.

Well, today has been a grey day and I have somehow been rubbed with some of the melancholy as well ...

Whatever, I just wish that everyone will be able to find the right person for him or her eventually. Life is a learning process, and maybe it is through mistakes and setbacks that we learnt and realise what is suitable for us, and what is worth treasured. Yes, it's a very painful process, and we have all gone through it. Let's just hope that everyone will find the right person for him or for her at the end of the day.

Before I end,
just a wish for myself:
Hopefully one day I can still find this simple yet true and dependable relationship, not one that is fanciful or just mere illusion.

And may this wish be extended to everyone who has read this entry as well. :)

Good Night :)

=)