Today I was posted back the question what I am hoping to look for in a relationship.

Hmm ...

Perhaps I am looking for one which is simple and steady, not something fanciful or ephemeral ....

Well, guess one's perspective changes with age. Throughout the years, after facing numerous setbacks and emerging from them has changed my outlook.

Well, guess I need a relationship where I can feel touched, and feel treasured as well. After all these years of being just on the giving end, I am simply tired. You can say that I am drained, too tired to be giving, or tired to face hurt again.
And maybe, too eroded of confidence to trust again.

Definitely, the relationship must be one that can be depended on and relied on. In times of adversity. Over the past year, the phrase "患難見真情" has been deeply etched in my mind. It is too easy for people to share good times together, but really, only during bad times will it be easier to see who is true to you.

The feeling must too be mutual and balanced, not with one party giving much more than the other. Commitment must come from both parties, both willing to put in the effort to maintain it.

Yes, I do agree that frequency and "默契" is important too. So that you can have that right kind of feeling ...

But at this moment in time, what I really need is perhaps a relationship that can make me feel touched, and to be able to trust again.
Someone who is willing to put in the effort, to go the extra mile, simply because ... she cares.
Perhaps if there's such a person and there's such a day, I would be able to give much more than received ...

For now, I shall reserve my feelings perhaps until if there's such a day, the right person emerge.

Meanwhile, now that the times of adversity seemed to have come to an end, it is now time for me to reorganise my life once more. To put my life back in balance. To catch up on the times I have lost. And to ... learn to love myself more.

Well, today has been a grey day and I have somehow been rubbed with some of the melancholy as well ...

Whatever, I just wish that everyone will be able to find the right person for him or her eventually. Life is a learning process, and maybe it is through mistakes and setbacks that we learnt and realise what is suitable for us, and what is worth treasured. Yes, it's a very painful process, and we have all gone through it. Let's just hope that everyone will find the right person for him or for her at the end of the day.

Before I end,
just a wish for myself:
Hopefully one day I can still find this simple yet true and dependable relationship, not one that is fanciful or just mere illusion.

And may this wish be extended to everyone who has read this entry as well. :)

Good Night :)

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