For the past two months that I have been driving regularly, I got to travel alot in the car, learn many new roads.

But sooner or later, I am gonna get my GPS! Haha ;)

Travelling around and seeing my more places from another angle somehow do help in widening one's horizon and taking new perspectives.

Together with the fact that the turmoil is coming to a close after more than a year, I suddenly felt empowered to do more things to my life. To manage it, and to get things in order.

Yesterday, somehow this sentence keeps coming across my mind.

"With power, comes responsiblity"

The fact that one having power to do more things, also means having to shoulder more responsibilties, to use your newfound power in the right way, and make sure it is not abused.

Take for example, I must really learn to curb my temper while driving. I must really learn to be more responsible and not so hot-tempered. I just can't stand it when people high beam me after I have signalled them and cutting their lanes. I was so worked up I totally lost my cool yesterday and did stupid things only to regret later for being so worked up. Luckily, it is not a mistake that cannot be rectified or bring endless regret. But I must really learn to cool down and learn from the lessons before something that cannot be remedied happens.

The past few days have been rather down days seeing people around being so upset. And perhaps all the more so because I can relate to it, similar to the pain felt almost six and half years ago.

At the point, it's like the whole world has collapsed, your source of strength taken away from you, and you just can't find a reason to carry on. The months that followed were like hell, breaking down now and then ...

But when things are down and seemingly hopeless, all the more you should carry on because as long as you hang on, there will still be a glimmer of hope.

But sad to say, I was not able to persevere all the way till the end. Perhaps over the years, the differences seemed more glaring and with more and more disappointments along the way, until things seemed so bleak that there is simply just not enough left inside to overcome the odds.

Perhaps, there was still a chance that things could have turned out well if not for the sucker punch that came from nowhere last year, that totally extinguished any remaining hopes. Perhap something were really not meant to be. You may not agree, but after all these, I just can't help but agree with the phrase:

"Man proposes, God disposes"

If I were to view it from another perspective, the self-consoling perspective, then maybe it can turn out to be a blessing in disguise.

But that is just my own side of the story.

Anyway, to whoever is reading this entry, and if you happen to be reading it, just remember that as long as one does not give up, there will still be a glimmer of hope? But first, you must ask yourself is it worth carrying on, to persevere no matter what is the odds? And are you sure you can last all the way till the end even though there may be even much greater hurt along the way? Are you sure you are able to take all these?

If you answer is yes to all these, go with your heart but at the same time where you ought to hope for the best, you must at the same time be prepared for the worst. Simply because the future is not for us to see ... and sometimes, the unexpected does happen which may leave us with little choice.

Lastly, I hope my little experience is of help to anyone. That ...
Time really does have a healing effect.

Besides the one who is hurt, the one who hurts is definitely also feeling the pain, and perhaps not much lesser.
But whichever party, as time goes by, the pain will become less unbearable until eventually, at some point, both parties will be able to move on from the experience and hopefully, pursue their happiness once more, no matter the outcome ....

I sincerely wish the days of pain will come past soon for everyone, and hope everyone has the strength to pursue their happiness in life once more. :) :) :)

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