Could not sleep yesterday after sending out an email late in the night ....

Accept with Grace
Decided to join Phang to watch the Champions League Final at his home. As a Manchester United Supporter, it was a disappointing night to see them outclassed and outplayed by Barcelona. But you just have to admit, Barca is good and the better team won.

Guess ... you just have to accept the defeat with grace.

Yearly Gathering
I managed to catch only 3 hours of sleep before catching up with Siaoshi and Yuling, who will be back in Singapore from Penang for just a week, for lunch at Causeway Point. You can only be amazed at how time flies. Siaoshi's son is already two months old and Yuling's second son, seven months ago. It seems like weeks ago only when the three of us last met a year ago. That was before Siaoshi's marriage.

Songs from my heart
Throughout the day, my thoughts and mood were dominated by these four songs which keep playing in my mind.


1. 我真的受伤了-张学友
A classic by Jacky, which brings out the melancholic mood in one.
Perhaps knowingly or unknowingly, one keeps hurting those around you, especially closed ones.
Though we may not have chosen to do so.
"To hurt and be hurt, is just part and parcel of life, however sad tat might sound."


2.纯真-五月天
My all time favourite amongst the songs by MAYDAY. Over the years, they have come up with many fantastic songs, but this song remains special. There are still vivid memories of watching the serial "楊門女將" while listening to this song. A touching and inspiring serial, complemented with a touching and sentimental song.

Listening to the chorus has never failed to stir up my mood. A sad resignation to the facts of life.


3. 半梦半醒之间-谭永麟
Perhaps only in this semi-conscious state between dreaming and consciousness, that people are willing to drop down their barricades to emerge from their shells to communicate and connect.

However, once back to the real world, the harsh facts of reality set in and that people realise that their dreams are no longer inter-connected, and we remained solitary travellers.

4. 追-张国荣
Throughout our lives, we have been in pursuit of things that we thought will bring us happiness and satisfaction. It was through going round in many circles and coming back to where we started, only then did we realised what we really wished for was actually something so simple, yet has eluded us all along.

As Megumi once told me,

"They want something tangible instead of the intangible. Wat they can't see, can't use, can't touch is considered unimportant. The world"

Yet, if it is intangible, how do we have proof that it is there, or it was there, or it will be there? Or is it just our delusion, our act of self-deceiving? If to hurt and be hurt is the only way, wouldn't it be better to be in solitude? Or maybe not because that's just life, which we have to experience?

Someday, maybe just someday if ever there's that day, my thoughts and moods will be filled with happy songs instead. Perhaps there comes a time when the sunshine can penetrate the darkest room.

But I need to realise the fact that it is just not my time yet.

Simply because right in front of me is this impending battle which I have no idea what the outcome would be. With so much uncertainties ahead, what right do I have to dare to hold on to anything in life?

By the way, the Manchester United team would have been a much better outfit had it not been that "brand" across their jerseys. Borrowing words from one notable premier league striker, "they" are a XXXXXXX disgrace!!!

Yes, they are for all the XXXXXXX deeds they have done. (And I am NOT referring to the Manchester United team.)

May justice be served one day and the evildoers get their just desserts. 多行不義必自斃!

But I must constantly remind myself, to let go of this feeling called "hatred", as one friend has advised, before I too get consumed by it...

Yes, we believe in karma. And because of that, we must remind ourselves to try our best not to hurt people around us, be it friends or non-friends.

May everyone finds their true happiness some day.

And hey... if one day, you manage to find that simple thing which I have been looking for, please let me know ... and where to look for it....

Well, think I can still catch a couple of hours of rest before starting work later.....

And meanwhile, let this be the corner for my reminiscent solace ...

=)