Many things may be happening to people around us, close to us, which we were unaware of, which may explain the unexpected, the unexplained, why the sudden change.
There are just so many things happening around, so many changes that has been happening that we simply don't know ...
Zao Hua Nong Ren
Monday, February 28, 2011 7:13 PM
There are so many things I had I wished I could do, not just for myself, but for people around, whom I care for too.
Now that things have come to this stage, what more can I do?
So this is the life I am destined to lead?
Not that I wish to lead this kind of isolated, dark and negative life. But I just could not break out of it.
The quicksand only got deeper. Previously, it was to the knees. Then waist.
And now my shoulder.
Is it time? Is it time to let go of everything??
Positivity for the year
Thursday, January 6, 2011 5:10 PM
2010 was a terrible year, terrible till beyond limit. Sanity was stretched to limit, emotions were pushed to limit. Bugged down by fear and anxiety every single day. During the dark hours, periods where I simply cannot manifest strength from within, what I really yearned for is someone who can be there, to provide the support, to walk through the bad times.
It is not what that is being spoken that matters, it is the action, the willingness to be there in my times of needs and helpless that is so important to me.
The me of 2010 has now been laid to rest. Finally, this year, I can slowly feel positivity creeping back. Although at this time, I am still overall being weighed down by negativities, I sincerely hope this year, will be the year where the negativities over the past few years can be washed out with some happiness in my life. Positivity and happiness, I really need you, please come and find me.
Some things about myself that seems clearer to me over this year:
1. I am someone who has a strong need to need and to be needed. It is that sense of emotional needs that draws me close to someone. The moment that when I feel I don't feel needed, is the moment I will drift away.
2. As due to above, hence I am someone who needs to be explicitly known of the fact that I am important, and that I am needed. Subtlety just doesn't work for me as being someone who is insecure and not confident, I tend to think more of the negative sides than positives when I am not sure.
3. For a guy, I am lousy in the sense I am too emotionally, and too unconfident of myself. Maybe that's the reason I need that someone who can bring the most out of me. Someone who can fill that void within me. Someone who can harness that dormant energy into constructive forms, not destructive forms.
Random
Wednesday, December 8, 2010 8:01 AM
Sometimes you just wonder, where the road ahead is leading you to? When you no longer knows what lies ahead to you?
What happens if one day you wake up and you feel numb? Numb to your feelings? Numb to things that were able to hurt you badly in the past? Is it because you really feel no pain or choose to delude yourself that you can realise pain?
What if one day when you wake up and feel no longer wish to interact, no longer wish to socialise? Cos you no longer know how to trust or no longer know how to believe?
Negatitvity only breeds more negativity. If postive reinforcements only come after positive actions, then the vicious cycle shall never be broken.
What if you are awaken, only to feel more tired, too tired to give, too tired to move, to tired to think, too tired to feel?
After sinking to the depth today, tomorrow is still just another day.
你太猖狂
7:43 AM
思念太猖狂 一个冷不防
一想起你 忙碌的生活变得空荡荡
对心事说谎 把你想到多么的不堪
伟大的你还想我怎样
假如真的再有約會
Monday, October 25, 2010 7:49 AM
A night where this song suddenly came back to my mind. Time just doesn't stand still. And it has been almost two years.
I like this song very much, not just for the catching melody, and the lyrics that resonate with my heart.
人清醒难感性 迷失方能找到期待爱情
Contradicting it might seem, there are some things which we can't see too clearly when we are sober. Rather, during moments of weakness, moments we were lost, things became more vivid. Times when perhaps you seem to be more in touch with your ownself, or the other side of you, your inner feelings which were masked during your times of consciousness.
Coming back to reality, the real world, the challenges, the difficulties, the problems that you have to face, one becomes detached with that side of you once more, and that feeling appears more and more vague, until once again, something strkies your inner chords once more.
I used to like the show very much too, haha. A show, which brings you to an imaginary and unreal world. For the dreamers. Cos this is the world where many enchanting and wonderful things that seem so surreal, can exist. And exist it does, in this surreal world.
Does everyone has their own little world, where they seek solace and escape to, perhaps, when the real world becomes too harsh for them? This world where they can relate to and reside in?
Honesty is the best policy! Leave the credits alone!
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